just came back from school today.. had fyp discussion with the group..
have been feelings fuzzy all day long.. worrying about our fyp.. coz it's in a week's time but we haven have any solid info yet... and still thiking of whether to do up the model.. but that was already decided.. no model.. :) lesser job for us anyway..

done the survey and emailed to my groupmembers :)
oh yes, the main point was.. discussingwho was going to science center tml to check out some techonology/sysytems that we could implement in our project.. time was of essence, i insisted to go tml.. which was a saturday.. but majority wasn;t in favor of it.. yeahh... :(

didn't know what got into me.. might be the noisy atmosphere in the library plus the group arguing on who to go.. and my fuzzy mood that got me all fired up.. kinda shouted at ps.. coz she insisted on not going.. yeahh.. :(


so after our discussion.. i left in a huff.. which kinda caused some misunderstandings -.-
yeahh... i dunno what i was doing too.. but at that point of time i just wanted to get out of there to calm myself down.. since the guys were going out to bugis.. didn't want my sulky mood to affect the group.. and also gave me time to think through why i was feeling this way.. yeahh..
well.. cheryl did came up to me and consoled me.. haha thanks so much cheryl.. :)

well yes.. these are the things i have thought through while walking home.. :)
and i know i love my group to bits :)

haha.. all the projects we have gone through since year one.. yup.. i think our group has grown and matured alot.. we are able to discuss matters together now.. instead of just deb and i delegating the work in year one :D

and i get the notion that ps and vivien thinks that i think they are 'useless' in the group -.-
which is NOT true!!! although yes.. ppl gets lazy at times..and that's excusable..
you guys have progressed alot okie.. at least they are into discussions now and are aware of the updates in the group... which i'm happy and grateful for it..

although we always side track from the topic at hand lol, at least they are aware of the general situations and changes.. :) and often try their best to find information pertaining to what is needed in our project..

so yes!!! no i dont think u guys are 'useless' -.- although i sometimes say nasty things or blunt.. i'm sorry okie.. maybe i just dunno how to put words across..

haizz T-T it's just that i sometimes feel insecure when u guys aren't putting enough effort in a particular project.. and i will question myself alot.. i am scared that i'm not good enough to be leader.. or if i was leading u guys into the wrong track.. that's why u guys were confused.. or if my expectations were to high.. when it actually didn't need so much info..

so i guess everyone has a part to play...without them all.. we also wont be able to always present our icas in a team :)
and yeahh.. if u guys are useless we wont even get A for gwen's ica okie!! lol..


anyway, that's all settled.. and the dust has cleared away..
going to meet regulars later.. so i'm going to wash up and get ready..