A successful woman is one who can find a man that earns more than she can spend~

woke up early today to get ready for ban and yikes my legs were numb and wobbly..had difficulty standing up...wad the hell lol..after da 25 rounds of running become lyk dat..feel awkard walking...=P well queen was away for holiday so most of us had da word "dead" stamped on our foreheads this morning..huey min oso late..so i gave her lotsa missed calls haha apparently i tot of wat refat said..each band member gave her at least one miss call..hmmm..sorry refat lol that's still not enuff..azman went all da way till 28 missed calls but still unsucessful =P anyway gathered at basketball court den run run run...legs were still wobbly nearly fell..hehe den went to band room get ready played songs blah blah..hmm..better den yesterday at least no monstrous scolding..yesterday was totally blur..coz they make mistake i oso run wit them..haiz..wat to do..all for one and one for all mah...today's blue ridge was better than yesterday??? den see piano very messy but cannot pack..hand itchy but scare refat scold haiz..sianz!!! LIBRARY SO MESSY~!!! dunno wat to do la..concentrate on songs first..but i tink i seem to be catching up with da section..at least i can play through blue ridge already left lil key signature probs..especially my "d flat" and "d natural" always make mistake...everytime play the other way round..

all in all..today okie quite nice..at least refat didn't scold lyk yesterday..so scary..haha never came last week so didn't know it was so serious..but i heard last week's was worse...but one thing veri sad today was everytime we counted and got ready to come in after rest..no sound came out..dunno why...maybe scared refat scold...dun dare to make entrance..if not is nervous nervous until hands fumbled..so entrance always very messy...

really sad coz last time we used to be so happy and "injoying" (in refat's term =P) the songs we played...but now is lyk everytime go into band room..minds always say "dunno whether today will kenna scold or not.." or "hope i dun play wrong.." or " hope refat today good mood"..generally fear is in now.and i feel that "da mr hong's days" kinda feeling are haunting us again..but this time is refat...=( how??? how come sound so horrible terrible and dumb...haha u ask mi?? sorry i dunno the answer...really blank really dunno..is lyk a veri confused feeling..something lyk "we-dunno-why-we-are-doing-tis" kinda feeling...and sometimes we play correct but refat say wrong oso dunno why...and i sometimes feel lyk refat is using da band as a frustration therapy where he pours and hurtles his anger at us jus becoz he's feeling troubled..not onli about band but something else..dunno..but that's wat i feel..=P

haha and yesterday even when i was trying to get to sleep..words from refat's mouth were spinning in my head...lyk "horrible", "terrible", "useless", "dumb", "NONSENSE!", "Rah-BISH!" lol guess those words can be trademarks already eh refat?? anyway..i am really tryin hard coz i know i'm behind da band already...coz i didn't come last week..hmm..dunno how he thinks of mi...haha mayb he dun even have time to tink how well i fare..might find some day to ask him..wait for him to be in better mood of coz..hehe =) love u grandpa!!!! hope u received the things we sent u!!!! especially da mahjong!! (^^)V